NOT MUCH TO SAY

All that I really have to say for today is this:
Don’t let the world or your own doubts take away one of the most positive things you have going for yourself – your determination to create a healthier, more energetic, more vibrant, more wonderful YOU.

I have a few things on my mind concerning my next steps in my journey that I feel I need to do. When I do more research I will let everyone know my decisions and my thoughts on going forward. Thanks to my good friend Clay on helping me take this route I think I may need to take to feel satisfied.

I FINALLY GET IT :)

Well this month of July was a beta test for me LOL. I wanteded to see if I could eat within somewhat normal and exercise; keeping my weight round the same. More less for one to give my body a rest from the strict diet I have been on since Jan 5th, 2010. Secondly to give in to some cravings so I can start back on my journey August 1, 2010 for my last 25 to 30 pounds. Well everyone I did it. this is really surprising to me since usually I would have started to gain back steadily. Not this time; must have been the exercise. I didn't go crazy and I didn't have take out. Normal home cooked meals as I followed my diet somewhat during the day and at night I stayed within normal meals. I probably had round 1500 to 2000 calories a day give or take. Some days I did however stay on track but others I went over. I am finding that I am really liking my diet and choice of my way of eating. Don't miss the high calorie foods at all or the breads, pasta. I do miss my diet foods. I will say I feel completely different not staying on track; sluggish and sleepy and not so focused as I was on my diet. Really had hard time getting the motivation to exercise and when I did; having hard time to come up with the energy to finish at a high peak as I usually do. Will say I am looking forward to getting back on track..felt like I was missing something LOL. Well this shows me that this time I don't think I am going to have a problem staying at this weight. THE KEY IS CONSTANT EXERCISE DAILY. With this you can pretty much eat what you want and stay at your weight but I will say you need to be at your goal weight.

My Mom is coming to visit this weekend....so excited...going to go to the casino on way home..and then she wants to go rollerskating Saturday night...will be so much fun!!! She said she may even go on my walk with me YIPPPEEEE...wow Nov 1st goal..100 days smoke free for my Mom and 100 pounds lost for me...100 years old my Nanny will be...can you say PARTY!!!!

Very high spirited tonight. Have to do my taebo. That is the other thing. With me not being on my normal schedule; I am finding that everything is not on track. I am now exercising late at night due to my procrastination. Oh well I guess it is better that I do it whenever than not at all :).

Looking forward to my posts August 1, 2010 and seeing my end results Nov 1, 2010.
Goal will be 100 pounds!! I will not be disappointed if I don't meet this goal..just think at New Years this year going into 2011 I will at least be 70 pounds lighter than I was going into 2010. Imagine for the last 16 years; every New Years my resolution was to lose weight. Hmmm this year I won't need to so I wonder what it will be? What a big relief that will be. I think the number 1 resolution is to lose weight. A huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders..hahah about 70 pounds. To me that is a big accomplishment. It really means alot with how different I feel with everything; work, home, social, energy etc.

Everyone needs to do this. Everyone needs to take one step to make themselves better. Just one step; that is all it takes, and I promise that it will; lead to the second and the third etc. This wasn't an overnight change for me..this has taken 6 months for me to get to where I am. I did it by myself..no pills, surgery or illnesses. Thank you for giving me the strength to get where I am today.

BACK ON TRACK

Had an awesome day. Ate well and felt revived. Thanks to everyone who helped me get through my down time. Not sure if my body was fighting off the carbs or what but the high protein intake today worked and I am back on track. I want to say again how important exercise is with a diet. Not only does it help your body build muscle and lose fat; but you feel like you have accomplished something when you are done a workout. Everyday your strength improves and everyday you get stronger. I just finished my tae bo workout and I feel so happy and energized. When you succeed in something I can't explain the feeling you get afterwords.

Total Awareness Excellence Body Obedience = TAEBO

Exercise: 41 minutes of Amped taebo

Ounce Cashews
String Cheese
Apple with sweetener and cinnamon
10 ounces of chicken
Ham steak
Ice Cream
Lasagna Meal
Salad
Pudding (sugar free)

Good night Facebook friends and I hope everyone reaches their dreams. Take one day at a time and if you mess up; it is ok, a new day starts tomorrow.

Overwhelmed

Well it is late and I can't sleep. I didn't exercise this evening but it is my day off; still feel so guilty. Been having a hard time this week so far sticking to my normal routines of eating and exercising. Doing my exercising but really having to make myself do it. Really not getting into to it until I hit the 3 mile point; regardless if it is running, walking or biking. I really think the pictures earlier this week are haunting me LOL. I still for the life of me never realized I was so big. I have met many new people through facebook this week and many have motivatedme into continuing and with my success so far. I look forward to the hardcore training that is coming up starting August 1st through November 1st. Maybe my body knows this and it is asking for a time out until then. I decided not to post my food journals for yesterday and today because they were useless. Snacking throughout the day with poor food choices. As I always say; TOMORROW IS ANOTHER DAY; TAKE WHAT I LEARNED TODAY AND APPLY TO TOMORROW. Hopefully tomorrow will be better and more on track.

Tuesday EXERCISE 12 mile bike : 534 calories
Wednesday EXERCISE : DAY OFF

Journal Entry for Mon July 19, 2010

Breakfast
an ounce of cashews 160 cals
string cheese 50 cals

Snack
slim fast 200 cals

Lunch
French Onion Soup 112.50 cals
1/2 cup of cheese 90 cals

Snack
ice cream 130 cals

Dinner
handful cheesies 100 cals
chocolate bar 210 cals
handful pretzels 100 cals

Snack (after workout)
pudding 60 cals
apple 100 cals
string cheese 50 cals
roast beef 130 cals

Daily total Calories: 1492.50

Interval Run/Walk: 6.12 miles: 545 calories

I will say that if I cheat with "unhealthy" foods during the day it is ok..but if you notice I do not ignore what I ate; I still log it and I try not to go over my calorie intake a day. I try to stay at 1200 calories a day; but like today I went over which it is ok since I worked out. Did a great workout and I felt great afterwords.

Getting a Wake Up Call

Well I posted picture's from January 5th and one from May 2010 late last night. I never compared the pictures before. I am still floored and almost sad. I never realized I was so big. I don't know why but I never did. I think I carried it well but the size of my face was huge. I was very embarrassed I let myself go like that. I am sorry but I never want to be that person again. I am a completely different person right now. I still have a ways to go. But I think what I did with the pictures made me realize that I did have a problem. That I am not done and I need to continue. See I have a problem of getting comfortable and somehow I end up back at where I started. So I will be continuing what I have been doing and I think I will be finally able to breath some sort of relief that I have come a distance from January 5th, 2010. Wow I can't imagine my pictures in November.

Sunday's

I love Sunday. I use this day to reflect on my previous week and to determine how I may need to improve on my upcoming week. I use this day to create my food lists for the week and to create my exercise journals for the next 7 days. I write everything down. Every exercise I do each day, what I eat and how I feel. Today looks like a great day :)